Showing posts from April 22, 2018


A few short years ago, my life was changing so drastically that I often wondered how I was going to cope with everything that was happening. Here I was in my 30s nowhere near where I thought I would be in my life and certainly never thought I would be mourning the death of my only brother. I felt broken, defeated and like such a big time failure. I was unemployed, unhappy and alone and just could not see a way out of the darkness I was in. I could not control anything that was going on and because of that, my health began to suffer; I was falling sick every other week or month, was losing mad weight, plagued by daily headaches and migraines and a rising blood pressure. I was scared that if things did not change soon, my mom may be mourning the loss of a second child and that thought alone was enough to shake me out of the depression I was slipping into.


This is going to be a new series on the blog that focuses on us 30 something year olds who are still trying to figure it all out. First, let me say that it is perfectly fine if you are in your 30s and still haven't got a clue what direction your life is going, why it seems like you are moving at a slower pace than everyone else or why nothing appears to be working for you the way you had planned. A lot of the time it feels as though I am perpetually late to everything; from getting on social media to being a 'girl boss'. Its been tough trying to find myself in this maze of madness called life and even tougher to connect with people who feel my pain or even understand what I'm really going through. Many days it just feels like I do the same exact things day in and day out and that has gotten to be frustrating over the years. Every time it seemed like I was taking a step forward, I would in reality be taking two steps back. Who do we blame? Our parents? Our environmen


Sickle Cell Crisis is one of the most painful episodes a person who has SCD goes through. It is often times a sudden occurence but at other times, certain things could trigger it. Crises happen because some of the red blood cells in sicklers are curved (instead of round) and hard and as a result don't move around as easily. They then get stuck in the small blood vessels of the chest, stomach and joints and that is when there is crisis.