I think we would all agree that 2020 has not been the year we all thought it would be; it has turned out to be nothing like what we expected and we are all stuck trying to navigate this new normal. I for one know that it has been a real struggle to find my bearings and it became almost an issue to fully get back to blogging.
Coming back to blogging and checking in on my first 6 months of this strange year with a 2 month break in between, I can say for a fact that I'm in such a different head space today than I was when the year began. Thankfully I still feel the pull to write about things that interest and intrigue me but I will admit that my enthusiasm to do so has waned a little/a lot. I honestly do not know! I see all that's going on around me and I can't help but feel like everything that I once thought I knew, I no longer know for sure. I'm questioning my own position on things, not just socially but personally now.
In this atmosphere of civil and racial unrest, my mind is racing in many different directions but my faith in God remains unwavering. I mean, what kind of christian would I be if I chose to distrust God in these strange times? How can I not believe in the Almighty when man has clearly demonstrated that he can not be trusted? I understand that as people, we are all flawed and will always err but to see the blatant hatred in our hearts find expression in our actions is frightening.
So coming back to blogging after a break this time around has not been something I was excited about like I once would have been. It feels like I should be writing about more pertinent issues but I know that there needs to be a healthy balance. I know that our mental health is a fragile thing and the mind has only so much capacity for the heavy. With that in mind, moving forward, I will do my best to keep things the way they have always been here but still do my part to educate you on what it means and has meant to be Nigerian, to be African, to be a woman and to be a black woman.
With that said, I'm back to blogging and I hope I didn't loose too many of you while I was away. I know I said something about a possible new look and I will get to it, I promise.